Alot of people might come to think this is alot of babble that I'm putting out there for anyone to see. But there is a purpose, or a good suggestion from a dear friend (df) and that was to start writing down how I felt so that I could get things out of my head.
So I should really start at the very beginning, 2days before Christmas I had an accident putting me in hospital for 2nights and ruining Christmas 2010, I had taken my knee completely out of the socket and putting me in a full length cast that I wasn't allowed to walk on, which doesn't sound to bad having to be waited on and getting people to run around for me, but when you can't get to the toilet by yourself or having to watch your family and BF go through pain to help you stand up because you can't do it yourself. That's when you really get sad or your can't leave the house with being accompanied everywhere you go or can't share a bed with the man you love. This has got me down so much I just want to be able to escape and have my life back with long walk along the beach alone again and to be able to go to work was out of the questio
Since then I had another full length cast for 4weeks but I learnt so much walking up and down stairs and how to get myself around in a wheelchair and learning to dress myself again, which as been hard and taken a lot of will power with help from my family and friends but this has not come without of other problems most mentally challenging but those I'll talk about another time.
7 weeks on things are better but I still have to be careful and rely on a wheelchair, but I am now in a brace which allows me to bend my knee but I still have very limited mobility and rely heavily on the wheelchair.
But that is all for now I'll post again tomorrow
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